“I thought we’d have more time…”
“We always think that.”
S I U A N S A N C H E
Daughter of the river.
Clever as a pike.
Strong as the tides.
Maybe it’s been mentioned before, but I haven’t seen it yet and it’s such a Thing™ for me.
Yes, these are Siaun’s father’s words. The first person who knew her fully, the first who knew her power and who made a deeply painful sacrifice to protect her and give her more agency and power than she could even imagine at that point.
And yes, we have seen, at this point, that Moiraine is physically and emotionally intimate with her, in a way that probably no one else is currently (and maybe ever has been).
BUT HERE, RIGHT HERE, we see just how deep that emotional intimacy is. Because at some point, Siuan had to tell Moiraine the story of how she came to the White Tower. At some point, she quoted the last words her father probably ever said to her.
And for all these years, Moiraine has remembered. Word for word. One of the most formative and deeply personal moments of Siuan’s life, and the woman who loves her (whom she loves just as deeply) remembers it, as clearly as if it is her own memory now. And she quotes it back to her, in the moment she needs it most.
It’s more than just a veiled marriage vow. It’s “I see you, I love you, and I will always do whatever is necessary to protect you, to give you agency and power.” It’s a (maybe final) reminder of “I love you, more than anything, I love YOU, not your power or your prestige, and I have always seen YOU, underneath your masks and political intrigues, and it is always for you, only for you. You are my family. I remember who you are (and who you are to me), and I always will.” It’s a reassurance, a reminder of Siuane’s strength, a comfort for the grief she’s feeling (which Moiraine feels too), and a tiny love letter of “Everything you have ever held dear, so have I. What’s mine is yours, my life, my memory, my heart.”
And…fuck, man. I will never recover from that.
I thought we’d have more time.
We always think that. Don’t we?
One day we will. In this life or the next.
—Moiraine & Siuan
THE WHEEL OF TIME (2021)
I think that that confidence that I had as a young woman has gone through with me all through my life. I’ve never been – I’ve never felt that I had to look, or appear, or be a certain way for a man, or indeed, for a woman. Nor would I expect a man or a woman to do that for me.
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im so tired of this life. i want to be a roomba. i want knives taped to me. and i want to be set loose.
the reason i like staying up late so much is because between the hours of 1am-5am, the world is quiet and no one expects anything from me. i could stare at my wall for 4 hours and there would be no consequences. it’s so silent and calm. i love it
i feel like im in the sims where it takes 5 hours to make pasta and then u have to immediately go to bed